My thought is that I am hurting, and so is your daddy. Please pray from heaven and ask Jesus to mend the side of the family that you only He knows He can and we can with effort and kindness and sincere love. If we can't move on from the past then there's no future for us. You are what can make us smile when we look back on the time we had, but through the tears we wish that you were here to meet those you didn't get to meet. Take care of Grandpa, Great Great Grandmothers, Great Aunt, Great Uncle, Great Great Grandfathers etc until we meet again.